Lorin Duckman at Garrison Art Center

Never had a solo show. Well, maybe this wasn’t. Shared the space with another artist.

Sanders Watson had houses without people, ironically from Queens. I had people without houses and people who would never be allowed in some houses if they dressed as I saw them on the street. Carinda Swann curated the show, coming up with the name, writing the gallery director’s statement, describing aspects of the art which the artists, blinded as they were by their own creativity, couldn’t and didn’t see, in gallery manager/art critic terms.

Life Sans Homes:  Homes Sans Life
by Carinda Swann

Both the paintings by Sanders Watson and the digital photography by Lorin Duckman exhibit uncanny attention to technical detail, but at first look the two bodies of work appear to have almost nothing in common with regard to content.  Further study reveals unsettling commentary from opposite ends of the same spectrum.  And one must listen carefully, as the artists’ visual narratives do not scream.  They whisper.

In the Balter Gallery is new work by photographer Lorin Duckman, the “Best in Show” award recipient of Garrison Art Center’s 2010 annual juried photo competition PHOTOcentric.  In this exhibition Agony and EXtasy Duckman presents two series: one, close textural portraits of men and women without homes and the other, a documentary slice of sorts into a world of extremes.

A lingering eyeball-to-eyeball look at Duckman’s unnervingly close portraits can bring one to the verge of tears for reasons difficult to verbalize.  It’s about more than the fact that we recognize the artist’s subjects as a part of a larger picture that many prefer to not see.  It’s in part about the unchecked vulnerability that is so visceral in these portraits, which are also somehow without self pity. And it appears that the artist has so clearly understood and captured a moment of that person’s existence and psyche that we question whether it is real, but not for long.  Duckman’s technique of focusing his lens on only a part of the face, with the surrounding field out of focus, further strengthens the desire to know more than a moment of these life stories, and his decision to present the portraits larger than life size and in excruciating detail forces the willing observer to see beyond the skin.

Unlike his close portraits, Duckman’s documentary look into a fashion ball called Latextasy that ends a Fetish Week celebration in Montreal, may be screaming more than it is whispering.  But in spite of that and the fact that these images may be disturbing to some, there is almost a naivete present in some of these characters as they so openly strut their stuff.  Here the artist uses his camera to capture a broader composition that is more about a sum of parts –environment, costume, attitude–as opposed to a ruthless focus on the individual.

A walk through the doorway between the Balter Gallery, teeming with life, and the Gillette Gallery, devoid of it, is an alarming visual transition.  The recent oil paintings exquisitely rendered by Sanders Watson include houses that would be perfectly at home in an Edward Scissorhands neighborhood.  The artist’s skill is immediately evident. His handling of light calls to mind the paintings of Edward Hopper.  But in a sense, the subject matter is more still life than it is architecture and landscape. There exists a clear bent toward controlled perfection with a tonal technique similar to Wayne Thiebaud’s pie slices and candies.

What moves these paintings beyond just excellent architectural renderings is the absence of any signs of life–no people, no cars, no dogs, no dirt.  Watson’s objective presentation of urban and suburban middle class living spaces is a slow-motion slap in the face.  And soon, the viewer comes around to the realization that these perfect homes are intensely lacking, and the longer one looks the more disconcerting this fact becomes.  Yes, it is a whisper, but a powerful one, particularly given the unspoken life stories of the men and women next door.

Somewhat a Duck out of water in Garrison, New York, I had only two visitors who came just whom I knew independent of the art center. Barry Friedman, an important person in my overall life, having introduced me to Sharon and who had, at an earlier time in my adulthood, facilitated my hiring at the Office of the District Attorney of King’s County, came. He recently found me on Facebook. Helen Simon, older daughter of Sharon’s Aunt Elaine Solomon, also showed up. Both drove from NJ. Both had their origins in Brooklyn, as did Sharon. Barry came to see me more than my art; likewise for Helen, who came to reconnect with Sharon.

I had them all there: my street girls, my street guys, and my street latex. For right now, it is the best I can do. Had help from a framer with the Burlington street people. Sharon and I framed the Montreal beauty contest. They looked great, spread out on the walls. Never saw them arranged that way. When you take them, you don’t think they will end up in a gallery, next to one another. In fact, you don’t evern realize what they look like individually.

So, some people actually looked at my work and wanted to know more about it. Others stayed in the room with the wine and food, which were very nice, I must say myself. My stuff may be hard to take when you are eating.

But, the coolest thing that happened, didn’t just happen; I planned it. Whenever I show my work, people ask me how I took the pictures. All of a sudden, people are uptight about possible invasions of privacy to people they could care less about. The person could be out cold on a bench or asleep in a doorway, or, as far as the latex girls go, hustling from the same spots, and they won’t look at them, give them the time of day or a dollar. They will step over them, around them, holding their noses as the dial 911 for the street sweepers or the gendarmes. If I point my camera at one, they all of a sudden wonder how did you get away with this? Did you get their permission? Did you tell them what you were going to do with the images? Like the camera gives them rights which I am taking away by activating my shutter.

I always think that the people who ask me these questions deserve to forfeit part of their fortunes for the economically challenged. Most think that homeless people like to be dirty. They think homeless people don’t eat, read, or converse. They don’t understand the even some who have places to stay, need the streets to make social connections. Some carry all their possessions on their backs, not knowing where the next couch will materialize. Others don’t want possessions. They are as different as all of us and more. They are also just like us.

People don’t understand that I take the pictures to show to people who may be more likely to look at them in a gallery, as high art, than in context. Maybe they will return to their communities and volunteer at an anti-poverty program, food shelf, or homeless shelter. I get them to look at my models, seeing their humanity, seeing their dignity. To the people who are afraid to look and want to protect the images, but not the people, maybe this introduction will tell them that there but for whatever go I. You look at my guys. You cannot tell where they came from or where they be going. They be free and not as unhappy as you think. They just don’t have a lot of money. I am not ashamed to look at them and they are not afraid to look at my camera.

So, I turned my camera on three willing faces and took the same kind of images I always take. You could tell, if you watched me, that the camera gets right in the subject’s face. And since I haven’t been slashed or punched, and since the people look kind and gentle, we be having a conversation through the lens will full participation and collaboration of the street person and the photographer. Amazing. Just f…ing amazing.

Cowboy’s Socks and Andrew’s Return

“Did you know that when the feet go, you go? Socks. Homeless people need socks.”

Wise. Helpful. Smart. His history be his history. “Found some socks on the street. Put them under the tree. Got to be practical. And its Christmas.” I had made a date to bring him socks. He didn’t think I would show. Wayne showed up. Gave both of them socks and liners.

He needed to talk about how skewed the world was. “If the apes can learn to survive on isolated islands, why can’t people living ….”

And then along came Andrew.

“I look a lot better than the last time you saw me, don’t I.”

“For sure.” Lost. He was so lost. A person came up to him in the park who was seriously out of it. “Got to stop drinking.” Andrew replied, “I got to stop doing a lot of things.”

A coin commemorates completion of the twenty-one day program at Maple Leaf. How proud he was to stick it out. “You know what this is,” he asked.

Her name is Molly. They came home together. Not sure its a good thing, but others have made it. Better than going back to someone who doesn’t know who you are now. “I hate having my picure taken…. I don’t like looking at myself.” “Maybe that’s why you had to go to Maple Leaf.”

Will he stay or will he go? Who knows. Dan don’t even know. Woman he let shelter from the storm in his room chugged a bottle of vodka, fell, hit her head, and ended up in the hospital. “You shouldda gotten that photo.” He made plans to leave, discussing with the street resource worker what to do with his possessions—bike, trailer, clothes, etc. “Why do you take so many pictures?” “Why do you talk so much?” “Because I can.” …. “I get it.”

Larry at Work on Church Street

As Larry sat behind his sign near Pampanoosuc Furniture on Church Street, a guy walked and handed him a large beer. Larry stuffed it in his bag. “You want to go drink it,” the guy said. “Can’t you see I’m working? If I leave my spot, someone will take it.”

He has a place for the winter. Will not say where it is.

Always courteous, he always has a god bless or a thank you for those who help him. I took change from him, yesterday. He wanted to give me coins. For a five, I received neatly four folded singles. “People have been very kind to me this year. Especially the Canadians. I tell them I take Canadian, but I don’t know what they are talking about when they speak to me.”

Paul Lost and Found

So, yesterday, December 1, 2010, I went out looking for him, starting at 7:30am. No Paul at the spot. 9:00am, no Paul. Walked the usual haunts. No one had seen him. Hey. I got a life, too. ran errands. Miserable weather. Just the kind outsiders don’t understand about VT. Its not the cold that kills you, unless you are homeless; its the windy/rainy days, temperature between high thirties and high forties, gray light, and nowhere to hide. Once cold, no way to shake the chill. Just when I was about to give up, there he was, back at his spot, 4:00.

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Paul Falls

Went to the park this morning looking for Paul. “Oh, you mean the old guy who pisses on himself? He fell so bad. He stood up. Went head first. Straight down. I called 911. Now, I have to go do my hair. I have an appointment with City Housing. Want to get my place back.”

“Paul still had the bags he had in the morning. Heard the sound. I picked them up and put them in the ambulance. He’ll have a bed tonight. He’s not going to make it through the winter. He doesn’t know when to stop. I did yesterday. Knew the alcohol poison was creeping up on me. Gave Paul just a little to keep him going. He was a mess…. You got him a laundry voucher. He didn’t use it….He has somebody.”

“He won’t make it through the winter. He don’t know when to get it done…. I ain’t so easy. Not going to any program. You got to suck up to Tim Coleman…. I could use a place. I got to get out of here.”

I went out looking for him. I walked the streets, looking up the alleys. Needed to get out of the cold myself. Went home. Probably should have gone to the hospital, but figured he was still in triage or something and I got no status. I was tired also and depressed. No end games. No solutions. What role do I play in this?

I went back in the afternoon, after taking care of business. He wasn’t on the street. Drove to Fletcher Allen. A bitch finding a parking space. Looked like a mall parking lot. Blue 1. Like you can read it on the elevator buttons. They offer a reminder card. Just another piece of paper in my pocket. Found the information place. The desk volunteer told me he wasn’t a patient and hadn’t been treated in the emergency room. “I used O, not a lot of them. He is not here and he hasn’t been, according to this.” We laughed about the power and future of computers and I left.

I drove past his usual spot. There he was.

He said they didn’t check him into the hospital. They said, “oh, its you again.” He was put somewhere and offered a tylenol. At some point, he was told to leave. A security guard stood nearby. He walked down the hill and took up his spot.

I offered to take him to Act One. He said they would not take him and would want him to go back to the hospital. He wasn’t ready to go back there. He said he had blown no numbers, “.oo1.” He couldn’t remember how he fell or where. “They told me that I fell down a flight of stairs.”

“Tell my sister I need to get out of here. They are trying to kill me. This is a message for me to get out of town.”